Grrrrrrrrrr

So, I haven't been keeping up with the blog and I haven't been doing well at all.  I've still been trying to follow SW minus the rice and pasta, but I have GAINED weight.  I don't think that telling me to eat as much as I want is working.  Yes, I am eating the right foods, lots of veggies, fruits, and lean meats, but it just is not working for me.  I honestly think I need portion control.  I don't know what to do at this point.  I don't want to give up on SW, but I can't seem to make it work for me.  I wish there were meetings here.  I have been thinking of joining WW again just to have those meetings, but I'm not sure.  I am going to begin posting my meals again, but I think I will do a once weekly post with all my meals from the week.  Maybe that will help.  UGH!   I don't know.